bignancylo

I think I am ready to go back home... Cottey's become my home. I said that today without thinking and my mother became very sad. Sorry mom. I love you, but this house will never be my "home" again. Especially when I've been here for a month and a half and I'm still digging through my suitcase in the morning for my clothes. That's pretty sad. Only a month and half left.

Spring Break is here and it feels so good to just sit around at home and go out to lunch with old friends. But despite all the fun, I'm kinda lonely. I miss my bestest friend... she's on the other side of the world. I'm glad that she got the opportunity to visit her sister in Taiwan. I miss her terribly. Brittney, if you're reading this... I miss you hun, I can't wait to see you again. I hope that you're having fun!!! Talk to you later. I'm sad now, so I think I'm gonna go cheer myself up with some ice cream and a walk down main street, and later tonight I'm gonna watch Napoleon Dynamite... good times*crying*... Bye for now.

I havent writen in here at all. so i guess this is my first time. Feels weird. Brittney wrote in here the first night i started my live journal and after that i wasnt really very interested in writing in here.So here I am trying to study for a damn algebra exam. It sucks- no matter how hard i try to understand the stupid material-- i cant seem to get it. Im so fucking stupid! Its really starting to get to me right now. Theres a large possibility that i may not come back next semester due to my grades. I could easily say fuck it and forget about even coming back... theres other colleges that could offer me the same things and more, but that makes me really sad at the same time. You see ive made a lot of great friends here. I never thought that id be able to make such awesome friends. My best friend is here and the thought of haveing to go somewhere where shes not going to be, to make me laugh and help me through things, makes me want to cry everytime I think about it. I guess ill see if this is meant to be or not. Everything happens for a reason, right? Maybe college isnt for me.... maybe this one isnt for me. I guess ill figure it out.

So I started a livejournal. Now I am going to go to sleep.